Not My Mess

This has been a very strange day. I had an appointment at my bank for 10 o'clock this morning, I turned up on time, much to my surprise. I went to the front counter to let them know I was there and the receptionist looked confused. She told me the woman I was seeing doesn't work on Monday and my appointment is for tomorrow. We went round and round about how the mistake could have been made, in the end, she was not there, probly gave me the wrong day and I have to return tomorrow. I went for groceries and, as usual, it was hard trying to remember what I need without any list. I didn't want to be there and didn't want to leave without the few things I needed. Really didn't want to pick up ice cream and other things I don't need. Finally, I was able to go thru the under 9 item check-out with my purchases. Nearly home, feeling safe. Walked in the door and dumped the bags on the kitchen floor. As I was taking off my coat the phone rang, it was my son. He's not doing well, can't get work. He was ranting and raving for a long time and at one point I thot I needed to tell him I had to go, then I realized that that's exactly what I have sounded like with people and I needed to be heard. So, I settled in and listened till it was time for him to get going. It doesn't help him get work, but it makes him feel better to know that he can say what he wants to and get it out. I think he's depressed right now, to be expected, but listening to him is the only thing I'm in the position to do for him. I had plans to get a couple of things done this afternoon but after I got off the phone I needed to sit down with a hot coffee and have a break . . . too much day . . . I actually dropped off and had a nap to refresh my mind. Tomorrow I will be going back down to the bank and see if I can get in for my appointment. They say if you have a tough Monday, the rest of the week will be great. Meg :)

Year End Summary

I haven't been around much, I know. What do you do when there is less going on in your life than opportunities to write about them. This past year I had the idea that I would start this column and then create activities to document here. June was the last time that life seemed to be ordinary enogh to tell anyone about. During July I began having financial problems right after I decided that I'd take a new course, spent the month juggling things. In Auguast I took a let's-go-get-a job-club couple of weeks and ended up with nothing to show for it. I had thot I could have dealt with a light-work job but all they seemed to want me to do big full time jobs and I knew it wasn't up to it. September came and I started a Medical Terminology course that took a lot of my time. I had been told that I would be able to get a job with it and apply at VIHA for a desk job doing paper work, you can get part time and that suited me just fine. Each month held its own set of problems of course and I had to deal with those plus work on the studies. October didn't seem any worse than the rest, but I'd gotten into a rut of studying and attending class twice weekly by then. I began thinking about playing some Christmas music and using the abacus practice that I like to do to give me breaks and keep my mind active. It feels like I'm in a tizzy of madness and I often wonder if I'm making the best use of my time. I was making pretty good marks but there were other students going for the same thing and there are few jobs really. In November I started hearing that there was more to applying for the job than just passing this course. I sort of ignored it, I had paid for the course, passed the deadline for getting out with any reimbursement, might as well stay and complete the challenge. I was getting really tired, sleeping more and finding it harder to retain information. It comes to me that I really won't be able to handle full time work, started getting that groggy feeling like I did when I'd overdone it at other jobs. December is the beginning of reviewing plus studying the new work, I have forgotten how to do that and it felt like I was getting further and further behind and would I be able to cut it at the final exam? There was a huge wind & rain storm so class was canceled so that pushed the last class to an extra session. Its a good thing I didn't have any big Christmas stuff to take care of, I would never have been able to do it. I took the final exam on the 20th and it was over and I was relieved. I had been invited over to a neighbor's place and all I had to do was bake a plate of tarts and bring my harp to play as my contribution. Well, I don't want to go into it here, we had a disagreement and she called off dinner, so then I had nothing to do for Christmas. That's it for now, more later . . .