Slow and Steady Wins the Race . . . so they say

The last couple of days have been quiet, confused, frustrating. You know how that can be, when you walk across the room and forget why you are there, over and over and over and eventually you get very frustrated with this complete mindless activity. It gets quiet real quick when things get confused and you just hang out on the couch to make life smaller. After spending Monday trying to get onto my new schedule to create routines and get things done, it was a mistake, a HORRIBLE, TERRIBLE MISTAKE. That I was doing too much at once and getting overwhelmed doesn't begin to describe it. Then I had a burger on a bun (1st mistake) with cheddar cheese (2nd mistake) then I had ice cream (another mistake). See, there were mistakes coming and going and running into each other and after getting so tired from doing too much, I was a mess. Tuesday I did less and it went badly, started getting angry. Then I really knew it was time to quit and go rest . . . Right Now. Yesterday afternoon I came up with an idea on how to create a plan. I was pretty tired and couldn't hold two thots together so waited till I'd finally had a good nite's sleep. And Voila!! This morning I got up and was able to write it down in my morning journaling. I'm going to start small, work slowly, treat myself gently. WoW what a concept. Small is going to the Job Jar and pulling only one task for the day. Is it tiny? Only need 15-min to complete, set the timer and go do it. Is it larger? Needs to break down into 2-3 segments ( I like that word, segments) and set the timer and go work for 15-min, take a break for 15-min, need more? Set the timer for 10-min more. Need more time? Set the timer for a final 5-min; then set the timer for 15-min and go do more work. Rinse and repeat till the task is complete. Preferrably by noon, cuz I can't have lunch or turn on the set till its done, and we know how I hate to be told I can't have TV on don't we. There is also a list of fun activities for the break time that I can relax with. Then I have all afternoon to do more fun things, like this writing, to occupy myself with. This was the first day and I actually like it, feels small and long, but I am not overwhelmed and bitchy, angry, yelling. In fact, I'm almost looking forward to tomorrow when I can do it again. Oh ya, I forgot one part. This is going to be a 7-day a week program. I read somewhere that people who have some conditions, like MS, have to be on a regular routine that doesn't change, even one day of change, like staying up too late on a Saturday nite, or sleeping in too long on Sunday can cause problems. So, I thot I'd try it out and see if I could get things going along slowly and steadily.

Now, I'm off to my next fun activity, working on the sweater I'm knitting.