So, many many many days later . . .

I have been just "livin' my life" and have been forgetting to record it here. I think, what have I been doing? I mean I get up in the mornings and start with some sort of activities that involve interaction with the girls (read: animals) and have little interaction with people during each day. I'm not sure why, guess I don't go out much, don't do much, don't have much money. Any one of those without being in combination are going to restrict my life, undeniably. But, when you put all of them together daily, it guarantees that whatever goes on within the walls has to be fairly interesting to keep me occupied or I will be a step away from the edge of the roof.

I've discovered this hearts game on FB and got sort of obsessed by it for a few days, I'd play and play and look up to see that it was hours later and I have done nothing in all this time. I did complete several puzzles, found a few people who would swap heats with me, I chatted with a couple. One is a guy and I keep thinking that he is trying to cyber-hit-on-me and it really bothers me that I am expected to excite some man in this way. He thinks I'm funny and likes it when I make my quippy comments, and I guess that's all he wants, so I'll play for a while. I like doing the puzzles.

Recently, I've been eating all the wrong things and feeling awful. Asthma is of course, one of the main issues, but I also feel all out of sorts, mood swings, lethargy, anger. It gets pretty ugly at times. So, Monday I began eating lots of fruit and vegetables and like I do best on and, of course, had a chunk of chocolate for valentines. I don't know why, it seemed like a good idea at the time, I suppose. I promise to be good from now on.

Tried cooking on the weekend, and whatever I said about it at the time, I have to erase all that and admit that it tasted like Crap. I still have it sitting in the pan and have to throw it all out, but its a terrible waste of ingredients and money and time. From now on I'm sticking to the produce and quick things that I do well on. Who do I think I am? A Food Guru?

Its been a hard week here, every time I start getting going I have a set back. No one's fault, nothing much happening, but it takes a toll on my energy and mental capacity so I go back to the couch and take time off. The confusion that comes on is quite dramatic and I can go that way myself if I'm not careful. So, the best thing for me to do is recover my mental strength. Ch'ng can tell the difference, she has been acting like a jerk lately. Decides that she wants to go for a walk on her on, expecting that I'll just follow along. So, its jewelry time for her for a bit of time till she gets straightened round again. I hate doing that but she has to know that I am in charge cuz I know what's best for her better than she does. Its tiring raising a perpetual 2-year old who thinks she's an empress.

I have to start winding this up now, I'm also finding that the computer is taking a toll on my mental energy, too. So, I have to shut down, and its already at least an hour past the time. I'm not going to look till I sign off and shut down, coward that I am.